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泡热水，但我因为例假的原因没有泡成，很想补上，单独和他一起泡，鸳鸯戏水。

换上一件 Victoria’s Secret 内衣，水蓝色，丝绸的，可以当睡裙穿，领开得很低，开口处有桃红色的蕾丝，下摆大腿旁有很深的开口，很性感。外面套件上班服，一本正经去上班。

给他打电话。

我：想今天到你那里 — 一起泡 hot tub— 新年 party 那天没泡成 — 想补上 —

他：噢？但是我 — 今天 — 有安排 —

我：是吗？那 — 明天吧 —

他：明天也有安排。

我：噢 —-

01/04/2005

I’m definitely not in love with him…I still let his looks bother me. I still have non-kind thoughts about them…This is not the signs of being in love. I indeed need to get to know him more. I do want long lasting love, true love, love worth fighting for, living for. What is real love? It is satisfaction. Just be with him, I should feel satisfied, happy, definitely should not have any unkind thoughts.

We have had sex, twice. It wasn’t love making, even though we indeed cared for each other in bed, out of common courtesy. We are really not that much closer. Physical intimacy only gives the illusion of being closer with each other.

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